Beloved

Dearly beloved, incline your ear to me.
I know you feel alone, I know you feel weak. 
Just take a moment to breathe… 
Inhale a name for me, 
Exhale what you need from me. 
Abba, hold me.
Abba, restore me. 
Abba, fill me. 
Moment by moment I see you. 
Do you trust me?
I call you my chosen, 
You are my dance of divine.
Forever I will choose you. 
Forever you will be my beloved.                     
 
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I hear him call me, the beloved. Am I willing to accept the invitation as a guest or.. the lovely bride. As I look down at my ring I’ve realized all along I’ve been “the beloved’s, beloved.” Do you know that you are the Lord’s beloved? the very word beloved comes from the Greek word “agapetos”. Agapetos is used to describe a very special relationship between each other and often would refer to an only child connecting with his parents. Abba longs for deep connection with his children, this is how Abba Father feels when he looks into the eyes of His son, Jesus. Not only with Jesus but you and I., He wants to connect with us, not only connect but go deep. I’ve been wearing my promise ring that I bought in old town, Jerusalem (for about a year now) - and written in Hebrew is the verse in song of songs “I am my beloveds, and my beloveds is mine.” Every day is a reminder of who I belong too, who I connect with, and who I love.

Two thousand & eighteen

2018: A year for dreams to become a reality. 

Reflecting back on this year, my heart is filled with gratitude. The word for this year is expansion, expansion over my mind, body. This year I was faced with testing my theology and was able together to break down theological boxes and make room for a “clean slate”. This clean slate representing freedom - understand - and humility for the sake of humanity.

Last year I started the New Years by finishing my application for completion of my studies with University of the Nations - and now a year later I have completed my associates of arts in the field of communication. I am so thankful to have finished this journey and even more thankful for the friendships I’ve made along the way, my life is rich from the friends I’ve made - Jesus I am thankful, lets embark on this new year together.

Here’s my 2018 put to memories.
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Cheers to 2019!

Oneness

Echad, 

I hear this word, I feel it in my throat 'Echad' which is Hebrew for one (unified). God has been calling me to the oneness of Himself. This current season is challenging but, the scary thing is that I prayed for this challenge. Being back with Youth with a Mission is different, a good type of different. The friendships, the sunsets, and the passions are re-igniting in my heart. The environment- aka the bubble is comforting, encouraging, and bearing much fruit. I've encountered healings here- and God has used my right knee (a word of knowledge) to pray for Laurelee's knee and the pain left both of us. Crazy moments are happening all around and it is wonderful to watch/do this experience with Isaac. The Lord is both teaching us things, and one of those things is becoming rocks for the Lord before each other. It's all about building on His foundation first. 

What does being one with God look like for me? Giving myself up, surrendering my selfish wants and needs and coming to the Father. To pour out every fiber within me and onto the throne of Jesus Christ. To sneak away to the hiding place for intimacy. Intimacy is the key to being one with God, and intimacy comes from the hiding place which changes everything. 

I will not leave you orphaned. I’m coming back. In just a little while the world will no longer see me, but you’re going to see me because I am alive and you’re about to come alive. At that moment you will know absolutely that I’m in my Father, and you’re in me, and I’m in you.
— John 14: 18-20

Side note I have been doing a social media fast for 6 days now.. and what a difference. I was spending way too much time on my phone, and so far the outcome has been freedom on hearing His voice more clearly. Listen to His voice when He calls you to come closer, to draw near. Nothing else can compare to Jesus and His presence. Continue to pray for fresh revelation and for my photographs to capture the Fathers heart. 

I love and miss you all dearly,

-Heather

Made new

Exactly one year ago my journey with exploring God's heart began. Saying my goodbyes and stepping onto the United flight to Kona, Hawaii has been the best decision, I've ever made. Honestly a huge thank you to my girl Morgan Wright for saying yes to God, the countability of our friendship, and for making the journey with me.

It’s always like springtime with you, making all things new
— Matt Stinton

Reflecting on the person I was a year ago... is a night and day difference. 

God fully restored my old 'dead' life into a new creation, a new me. I had to up-wrap the insecurities I put on myself. I put up walls between Jesus and I. From hurt's and wrong I didn't even know affected me, and affected my walk. Breaking walls down and letting God heal my hurts gave me f r e e d o m. "I'm no longer a slave to fear, I am a child of God". This song became my anthem during DTS. 

YWAM Kona was my next stop to complete a discipleship training school (DTS). "To know God, and to make Him known". From my experience saying yes to God has been so rewarding. Laying down 6 months of my life to ministry has changed the course and direction of my life.

Knowing about God is one thing...but drawing close to His heart is another. I can write for years about my experience and how God was in work for the past 6 months and now! I filled out a brand new journal front + back of all the promises of God. I'm now on a new journal symbolizing all the new things God has done and is doing here in my hometown. #comeon

To you dreamers don't give up. Pursue the calling on your life. For me stepping out of my comfort of home has been the best decision. When God opens doors its a direct access of the Father, and his will for your life. "His will, His bill". I encourage you to say yes to him. It may change the way you look at life, people, and so much more and maybe just maybe you could be a planet shaker, nation wrecker for Jesus. It all starts by saying yes. 

Compassion

1: A feeling of deep sympathy and sorrow for another who is stricken by misfortune, accompanied by a strong desire to alleviate the suffering.  2: A feeling of wanting to help someone who is sick, hungry, or in trouble. 

Compassion is the word the Lord has given me for 2016. Is it crazy that I can already see the effect this word has for me. As many of you know I currently nanny for 2 wonderful families. Now as of last month (December) I picked up another family to care for, let me tell you God's timing for this was perfect. During the last week of November I was looking for more work, acting upon it I updated my care.com profile. Within only 48 hours I received a message from Jaime seeking part time help! 

Yes we serve a amazing and f a i t h f u l God. Taking care of his kiddos like a good father.

Jaime + Aaron have 4 children. Zeke (five and a half) Quinn (Three) Zoey (One and a half) and Arie the newest addition. Each family is special to me, all with different mannerisms and personalities. Now to tie in the word compassion, both Aaron + Jaime have Lymes disease, its an illness that causes severe fatigue and most days the parents are lacking in energy and sleep. On top of the Lymes, Aaron also has a rare blood disease where his blood is filled with metal. My heart aches for this family and I truly see where I'm needed, to love on the children, care for them, and build relationships. Also to be a big help to the parents yet make a spiritual impact while serving them all. Join me to pray for this family, for God's love to break any physical + spiritual attacks against this family.  

 Disciple: Encourage and let God be the center of all things through the good, bad, and ugly. I constantly find myself interceding for this family. Praying for a miracle and healing to happen. My compassion is towards them, and towards showing them God's heart through me.

My passion is to feel the Father's heart. What's on God's heart? You and I of course! His love for each living soul is abundant. When I spend less time on me, and more time on others I feel Jesus, and I get a small glimpse of heaven and am reminded why I'm here on earth. I am to be a part of the great commission and for God's love to spread to the very ends of the earth. 

And surely I am with you always; to the very end of the age.
— Matthew 28:20


First time

Before I formed you in the womb I knew you, and before you were born I consecrated you; I appointed you a prophet to the nations
— Jeremiah 1:5

My brother in law Jake has been away from home for a  s e v e n month deployment. During his time away his daughter was born.  So on December 22nd he met his daughter (my niece) Mackenzie Maree Vargas for the first time! After almost 5 months he got to hold his little girl for the first time. This sweet precious moment was captured by me!! 

The Mrs. eagerly waiting for the return of her love! 

Family and friends greeting Jake.

Oh the sweet reunion between my sister and her husband. To see the Vargas family complete makes my heart happy. There's nothing like having a loved one home for Christmas. Jake's homecoming is a Christmas miracle.

God loves to see his children happy

Jake meeting his daughter for the first time. 

The love Rick has for his son. This photo gives me chills from all the emotions behind it. 

It's the little things in life that bring much joy. Happiness comes and goes like the seasons, but to find joy and to live it out makes the days easier. In order to fully understand we must look to the Father for guidance. To surrendered each day and say "This is the day the Lord has made; I will rejoice and be glad". 

Mackenzie is a courageous lover. A lover of people and of life. Kenzie is a extrovert and is comfortable in large groups. Wherever she goes, whatever she does, Mackenzie will make each person feel special!  A true gift from God!  Mackenzie, be prepared to lead your generation into a boldness of Christ, like the missionaries. The world needs more missionaries to be the hands and feet of Christ!  

Big blue eyes, smooth flawless skin, and kissable chubby cheeks. Can you tell I love my niece?! 

First photo together as a family. 

My prayer to the Vargas family. I pray for God's protection, I pray for strength, and an abundance of energy.  Most of all God, I pray that when the trials get hard and going gets tough, that faith and love becomes the foundation for this family. Amen. 

Whoever does not love does not know God, because God is love
— 1 John 4:8

 

 

Home

Oh holy spirit come like a fire, all consuming, consume me
— Hillsong

Coming back to America, coming back to home has been h a r d. The hardest transition in my life. I see there's more to life then just the next best trend or the hottest juiciest gossip.I know the meaning of life and have seen it first hand. I'm called to love, to take up my cross. To minister to help the sick and befriend the needy. To be a better person than who I was yesterday. This challenge is something I must take up. I must take up my cross every day.  

I may be cursed at, looked down upon, and hated by many. 

But at the end of the day.. I know my maker. I hear his voice when he calls. Other times I search for him. I cry out for him and long to be near him. When I most know God is when I'm most in love with Him. When I drop everything to involve him.

It is times that I cannot hear him is when I grow. In trusting that He will provide for me and that he has a g l o r i o u s plan for my life. That plan started  23 years ago. I don't believe in a plan A, B, C. I believe God will always have plan A for my life. I'm the one that may take the looong way and from my mistakes God redirects me back on track. This journey I have embarked on just started. God has been using me in way I wouldn't of done before I left. Here's how.

T H A N K S G I V I N G

Give thanks unto the Lord; for he is good: for his mercy endureth for ever
— Psalm 136

Can you believe that the Holiday's are here.. again! Thanksgiving a time with family and yes loads of food. This year is a new year filled with new traditions. On the 20th we celebrated Thanksgiving with my moms side of the family. My aunt Debbie does a wonderful job hosting. Each of the kiddos were asked to prepare something festive. I was given the topic of the Holy Spirit. Now the fun starts.

Homemade pumpkin pie. Made by yours truly. 

Back in lecture phase when I was at the University of the Nations. This first week was on the topic of "Hearing God's Voice" (look back from my blogs in April). I was taught a 'game' I guess you'd call it. You confess any sin you haven't dealt with, slience the enemy, and trust God will speak to you. Because He does

About an hour before the party. Planning and praying about the how the night would go. I felt a heavy pain in my chest and a feeling of d o u b t came to mind. "This will be stupid, what if God doesn't speak, your family won't be interested". Complete lies from the enemy. I prayed and the pain left me. Let me tell you there is so much power in the name of J E S U S. Satan had other plans for the night because he knew something good was to come. 

After dinner we gathered for a time of fellowship. After reading a few verses about the Holy Spirit I taught the game to my family. After passing out pens and paper, I lead them into a time of prayer and allowed God to speak. I took my cousins hat and placed all the pieces of paper in the hat and had each person draw. That night God spoke to each person in the room. Break through happened and walls that were up c r u m b l e d down. AS a family we prayed over one another. We were real with one another. Raw moments. All because I obeyed God.

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I have a purpose back home even if its to impact one person. Hands down the best Thanksgiving I've had. From this act of obedience it changed the atmosphere. "We create a reality around us, according to the reality within us". The stuff I learned in lecture phase is applying to my life.. YES!

From this outcome changed my own immediate family and we had a wonderful turkey day. Spent down at the lake house. Are you willing to listen and obey the Lord when He speaks and calls? Let me tell you its so rewarding. When I step out of my comfort zone is where Jesus meets me.

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