Beloved

Dearly beloved, incline your ear to me.
I know you feel alone, I know you feel weak. 
Just take a moment to breathe… 
Inhale a name for me, 
Exhale what you need from me. 
Abba, hold me.
Abba, restore me. 
Abba, fill me. 
Moment by moment I see you. 
Do you trust me?
I call you my chosen, 
You are my dance of divine.
Forever I will choose you. 
Forever you will be my beloved.                     
 
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I hear him call me, the beloved. Am I willing to accept the invitation as a guest or.. the lovely bride. As I look down at my ring I’ve realized all along I’ve been “the beloved’s, beloved.” Do you know that you are the Lord’s beloved? the very word beloved comes from the Greek word “agapetos”. Agapetos is used to describe a very special relationship between each other and often would refer to an only child connecting with his parents. Abba longs for deep connection with his children, this is how Abba Father feels when he looks into the eyes of His son, Jesus. Not only with Jesus but you and I., He wants to connect with us, not only connect but go deep. I’ve been wearing my promise ring that I bought in old town, Jerusalem (for about a year now) - and written in Hebrew is the verse in song of songs “I am my beloveds, and my beloveds is mine.” Every day is a reminder of who I belong too, who I connect with, and who I love.

Made new

Exactly one year ago my journey with exploring God's heart began. Saying my goodbyes and stepping onto the United flight to Kona, Hawaii has been the best decision, I've ever made. Honestly a huge thank you to my girl Morgan Wright for saying yes to God, the countability of our friendship, and for making the journey with me.

It’s always like springtime with you, making all things new
— Matt Stinton

Reflecting on the person I was a year ago... is a night and day difference. 

God fully restored my old 'dead' life into a new creation, a new me. I had to up-wrap the insecurities I put on myself. I put up walls between Jesus and I. From hurt's and wrong I didn't even know affected me, and affected my walk. Breaking walls down and letting God heal my hurts gave me f r e e d o m. "I'm no longer a slave to fear, I am a child of God". This song became my anthem during DTS. 

YWAM Kona was my next stop to complete a discipleship training school (DTS). "To know God, and to make Him known". From my experience saying yes to God has been so rewarding. Laying down 6 months of my life to ministry has changed the course and direction of my life.

Knowing about God is one thing...but drawing close to His heart is another. I can write for years about my experience and how God was in work for the past 6 months and now! I filled out a brand new journal front + back of all the promises of God. I'm now on a new journal symbolizing all the new things God has done and is doing here in my hometown. #comeon

To you dreamers don't give up. Pursue the calling on your life. For me stepping out of my comfort of home has been the best decision. When God opens doors its a direct access of the Father, and his will for your life. "His will, His bill". I encourage you to say yes to him. It may change the way you look at life, people, and so much more and maybe just maybe you could be a planet shaker, nation wrecker for Jesus. It all starts by saying yes. 

Compassion

1: A feeling of deep sympathy and sorrow for another who is stricken by misfortune, accompanied by a strong desire to alleviate the suffering.  2: A feeling of wanting to help someone who is sick, hungry, or in trouble. 

Compassion is the word the Lord has given me for 2016. Is it crazy that I can already see the effect this word has for me. As many of you know I currently nanny for 2 wonderful families. Now as of last month (December) I picked up another family to care for, let me tell you God's timing for this was perfect. During the last week of November I was looking for more work, acting upon it I updated my care.com profile. Within only 48 hours I received a message from Jaime seeking part time help! 

Yes we serve a amazing and f a i t h f u l God. Taking care of his kiddos like a good father.

Jaime + Aaron have 4 children. Zeke (five and a half) Quinn (Three) Zoey (One and a half) and Arie the newest addition. Each family is special to me, all with different mannerisms and personalities. Now to tie in the word compassion, both Aaron + Jaime have Lymes disease, its an illness that causes severe fatigue and most days the parents are lacking in energy and sleep. On top of the Lymes, Aaron also has a rare blood disease where his blood is filled with metal. My heart aches for this family and I truly see where I'm needed, to love on the children, care for them, and build relationships. Also to be a big help to the parents yet make a spiritual impact while serving them all. Join me to pray for this family, for God's love to break any physical + spiritual attacks against this family.  

 Disciple: Encourage and let God be the center of all things through the good, bad, and ugly. I constantly find myself interceding for this family. Praying for a miracle and healing to happen. My compassion is towards them, and towards showing them God's heart through me.

My passion is to feel the Father's heart. What's on God's heart? You and I of course! His love for each living soul is abundant. When I spend less time on me, and more time on others I feel Jesus, and I get a small glimpse of heaven and am reminded why I'm here on earth. I am to be a part of the great commission and for God's love to spread to the very ends of the earth. 

And surely I am with you always; to the very end of the age.
— Matthew 28:20