Beloved

Dearly beloved, incline your ear to me.
I know you feel alone, I know you feel weak. 
Just take a moment to breathe… 
Inhale a name for me, 
Exhale what you need from me. 
Abba, hold me.
Abba, restore me. 
Abba, fill me. 
Moment by moment I see you. 
Do you trust me?
I call you my chosen, 
You are my dance of divine.
Forever I will choose you. 
Forever you will be my beloved.                     
 
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I hear him call me, the beloved. Am I willing to accept the invitation as a guest or.. the lovely bride. As I look down at my ring I’ve realized all along I’ve been “the beloved’s, beloved.” Do you know that you are the Lord’s beloved? the very word beloved comes from the Greek word “agapetos”. Agapetos is used to describe a very special relationship between each other and often would refer to an only child connecting with his parents. Abba longs for deep connection with his children, this is how Abba Father feels when he looks into the eyes of His son, Jesus. Not only with Jesus but you and I., He wants to connect with us, not only connect but go deep. I’ve been wearing my promise ring that I bought in old town, Jerusalem (for about a year now) - and written in Hebrew is the verse in song of songs “I am my beloveds, and my beloveds is mine.” Every day is a reminder of who I belong too, who I connect with, and who I love.

Weightless

Words - thoughts - and ideas come into my head, and often I write the revelation down. This blog post is one the holy spirit has been hinting to me at. The process came when I dove into the water casting my work week aside to be refreshed. As I dive down I hear the Father speak this phrase to me, weightless - this is who you are. As I get this thought in my head I feel the connection. I was created to be weightless due to the cost Christ paid for. Which results in His endless grace He has for us. The burdens I've placed upon myself end up ripping Jesus from His full reward. When I allow God to fully take captive of my life, I allow the Holy Spirit to move in my life. 

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What causes weight in my life? As I ponder a daily (reality) struggle of mine is fighting insecurity. This territory is a real issue fighting off the thoughts of others and myself. When I dwell in this state of mind I allow fiery darts of the enemy, feeding me lie after lie. Festering on this issue of insecurity builds up a false identity towards myself. Leaving me isolated concerning my emotions and resulting in self-condemnation. I often try to live up to the success of my good deeds without realizing it. Leaving my faith to be religious, dry, and dull. 

Where are the lies coming from and where is this root issue. To my discovery, I've let my worldview dictate my worth, value, and beauty. From the outside looking in I don't have everything together, most of the time I create a 'perfect' reality in my head. Filled with endless questions of 'IF I' 

"If I get the perfect job, I'll be successful."

"If I move to another state, I can move towards my goals."

"If I go out on the missions field, then God can use me."
 

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This state of mind is a turning hamster wheel, meaning there's no end to the possibilities. Getting stuck in this momentum is toxic, and hazardous to one's soul. At the end of the day, you and I were created to be weightless. The Father is wanting us to inhale courage, passion, and dreams. In exchange for exhaling fear, self-hatred, and doubt. To trade our yoke for his which easy and light. I find it best when I cast all my trouble upon the Lord I am weightless. I am weightless because Christ has paid the ultimate price.

Compassion

1: A feeling of deep sympathy and sorrow for another who is stricken by misfortune, accompanied by a strong desire to alleviate the suffering.  2: A feeling of wanting to help someone who is sick, hungry, or in trouble. 

Compassion is the word the Lord has given me for 2016. Is it crazy that I can already see the effect this word has for me. As many of you know I currently nanny for 2 wonderful families. Now as of last month (December) I picked up another family to care for, let me tell you God's timing for this was perfect. During the last week of November I was looking for more work, acting upon it I updated my care.com profile. Within only 48 hours I received a message from Jaime seeking part time help! 

Yes we serve a amazing and f a i t h f u l God. Taking care of his kiddos like a good father.

Jaime + Aaron have 4 children. Zeke (five and a half) Quinn (Three) Zoey (One and a half) and Arie the newest addition. Each family is special to me, all with different mannerisms and personalities. Now to tie in the word compassion, both Aaron + Jaime have Lymes disease, its an illness that causes severe fatigue and most days the parents are lacking in energy and sleep. On top of the Lymes, Aaron also has a rare blood disease where his blood is filled with metal. My heart aches for this family and I truly see where I'm needed, to love on the children, care for them, and build relationships. Also to be a big help to the parents yet make a spiritual impact while serving them all. Join me to pray for this family, for God's love to break any physical + spiritual attacks against this family.  

 Disciple: Encourage and let God be the center of all things through the good, bad, and ugly. I constantly find myself interceding for this family. Praying for a miracle and healing to happen. My compassion is towards them, and towards showing them God's heart through me.

My passion is to feel the Father's heart. What's on God's heart? You and I of course! His love for each living soul is abundant. When I spend less time on me, and more time on others I feel Jesus, and I get a small glimpse of heaven and am reminded why I'm here on earth. I am to be a part of the great commission and for God's love to spread to the very ends of the earth. 

And surely I am with you always; to the very end of the age.
— Matthew 28:20